Change can Change us
It was not yet Mother's day, but my facebook and messenger are already filled with greetings.
Topics, blogs about mother were all discussed around the internet. I remember before when my world still revolved around my Mom.
I love my mom so much, that marrying someone in my life was not even slip into my mind because I thought that my mom and I will be together until the rest of my life and her life.
Having a wonderful job right after college and mom's on my side makes my life quite stable and comfortable.
But God's plan is different from us. It is true that real learning began at the moment you get out of your comfort zone.
When my sister took my mom away from me to live with her in the US, I felt lost and alone.
Like a little puppy trying to find her mother, a little chick trying to feel the comfort of her mother hen.
Recently I watch a video about Sarah, a local pop-star artist here in the Philippines. I've watched her how she breakdown during her show in Las Vegas.
She is famous since she was 14 and I think everything that she feels boils down in her childhood.
She was so sad, she feels empty and tired.
Then I reflected, remembering during my time. When I was still single and looking for love.
Then all of a sudden I realized, happiness really lies within us.
Not because we are famous, not because we have lots of money, not because we are successful.
Sabi nga Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success.
And I thought damn I got mature thru time.
I realized, we can make someone smile, we can make someone feel good.
We can make someone laugh, but whether or not that person is happy is totally out of our control.
It is not our responsibility to make others feel happy
Same as, it is not other people's responsibility to make us happy.
Because God really has a plan for each and every one of us believed me, He will do everything in His power just to know that we should focus on him and him alone.
That He is the only way towards happy and fulfilled life.
As I am writing this, I remember one of the books I've read about mother eagle and her eaglet during the time that I was all alone and live by myself for the first time.
How mother eagle tried to teach her young ones how to fly away from their nest for the first time.
The eaglet was force to leave the nest whether he like it or not.
There comes a time that the young eaglet is fearful of taking his first flight away from the nest.
Then the mother eagle will withhold food to force him out of the nest.
When I read that story I remember my mom so quickly and realized that God used my mom as my kind of food, trying to withhold her from me.
I thought then that my mom was the reason why I am happy.
To continue the story...
The eaglet was now alone in the nest. Each time a parent came flying in toward the nest the eaglet called for food eagerly; but over and over again, mother eagle came with empty feet.
And the eaglet grew thinner. He pulled meat scraps from the old dried-up carcasses lying around the nest.
He watched a sluggish carrion beetle, picked it up gingerly, and ate it. Until it's about time for the eaglet to do his first kill.
Why? because he cannot do anything but to trust mother eagle.
Just like us, there were times that we are on the edge of everything. We ask God, God why are you doing this to me?
And we beg to please spare us from pain, sufferings, and anxiety.
Why do we ask God to spare us? Because sometimes we never trusted him.
Because we are afraid to fly. I once asked God like this, during the first time that I was left alone.
I ask him why me? I have so many what if, at that time, I ask the Lord what if I fall?
then out of nowhere, I cannot remember anymore if I read it or heard it somewhere but the answer was so vivid at that time.
He said "what if you fly", I think I read it from the book about mother eagle.
Then I realized God wanted me to change because if I change it will change everything.
Honestly, I became bitter and starting hating my mom the moment she left me.
Not knowing that it was just God's way of teaching me how to fly on my own and taught me what happiness is all about.
Mother's day is coming and I just want to tell you a short story about a two mother.
The one who brought me into this world and the one whom I met 18 years ago.
A mother by heart and the other one was by deed.
My mom by heart introduce me in this world, took care of me, knows my cry, my craving.
As I grew bit by bit she cares for me. She taught me how to make it despite how cruel this world was.
While the other Mom whom I called Nanay was the one who taught me what love is all about.
How to be grateful for everything that I have and not looking for the things that I do not have.
She gave me one of her beloved sons that I believed a living legacy of her.
This coming Mother's day I want to give credit to this 2 wonderful person that God gave me.
Though the last one I mention whom I called Nanay was already with the lord, but I know she is still guiding us from afar.
I am so lucky to have them both in my life. I am not sure if I can surpass all of their accomplishment.
But sure did I will past it along to my children all of their teachings and all their love.
Salute to all the strong Mothers in the world.